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Jimmy Carter-- Loses Religion for Equality

http://jaia.gaia.com — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 18:17:11 GMT

This was the headline on the free Aquarius magazine I had picked up a few months before in the Atlanta area. I was cleaning things out of the RV a few days after my Jimmy Carter Baptist Church excursion, and knew there was no accident I had met him then.

It was a really nice experience of transcending the boundaries and borders of religion and when I read this article by Jimmy Carter it made me smile inside.

The same article was found online in a blog-- it is written first person about his decision to break away from the Southern Baptist Convention for their views of women. It is pasted below.

I did a little research on it, after being tipped off by a friend who said Jimmy Carter had actually severed ties with the church almost a decade ago. I found that he had in fact had issue with this topic and had written about it in a book. I also read a few arguments against what Jimmy Carter was saying, their perspective being, the Church, in giving certain roles to certain sexes is not discrimination, it is liberating for all to be clear on their roles. You know, like a woman is supposed to be barefoot in the kitchen having babies. Okay, they didn't say that, but after spending some time in the South, it seems people, men in general, are very happy with their roles and do not like people questioning them. God said it. Period. And that's the way we like it.

While talking with a woman in Arkansas, she asked where I was from, and when I told her traveling across country in an RV, and said it was much easier to drive than I thought it might be, she said, "Wow, your husband let's you drive it? That's really nice of him".

Wow. I realized then I wasn't in Kansas anymore... or California... or anywhere else paradigms are being broken through and considered from more expanded and liberating perspectives.

Thank You Mr. Carter.

"Everyone is entitled to all the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration, without distinction of any kind, such as race, color, sex, language, religion, political or other opinion, national or social origin, property, birth or other status ..." (Article 2, Universal Declaration of Human Rights)

"There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus." (Galatians 3:28)

I have been a practicing Christian all my life and a deacon and Bible teacher for many years. My faith is a source of strength and comfort to me, as religious beliefs are to hundreds of millions of people around the world.

So my decision to sever my ties with the Southern Baptist Convention, after six decades, was painful and difficult. It was, however, an unavoidable decision when the convention's leaders, quoting a few carefully selected Bible verses and claiming that Eve was created second to Adam and was responsible for original sin, ordained that women must be "subservient" to their husbands and prohibited from serving as deacons, pastors or chaplains in the military service. This was in conflict with my belief -- confirmed in the holy scriptures -- that we are all equal in the eyes of God.

This view that women are somehow inferior to men is not restricted to one religion or belief. It is widespread. Women are prevented from playing a full and equal role in many faiths.

Nor, tragically, does its influence stop at the walls of the church, mosque, synagogue or temple. This discrimination, unjustifiably attributed to a Higher Authority, has provided a reason or excuse for the deprivation of women's equal rights across the world for centuries. The male interpretations of religious texts and the way they interact with, and reinforce, traditional practices justify some of the most pervasive, persistent, flagrant and damaging examples of human rights abuses.

At their most repugnant, the belief that women must be subjugated to the wishes of men excuses slavery, violence, forced prostitution, genital mutilation and national laws that omit rape as a crime. But it also costs many millions of girls and women control over their own bodies and lives, and continues to deny them fair access to education, health, employment and influence within their own communities.

The impact of these religious beliefs touches every aspect of our lives. They help explain why in many countries boys are educated before girls; why girls are told when and whom they must marry; and why many face enormous and unacceptable risks in pregnancy and childbirth because their basic health needs are not met.

In some Islamic nations, women are restricted in their movements, punished for permitting the exposure of an arm or ankle, deprived of education, prohibited from driving a car or competing with men for a job. If a woman is raped, she is often most severely punished as the guilty party in the crime.

The same discriminatory thinking lies behind the continuing gender gap in pay and why there are still so few women in office in Britain and the United States. The root of this prejudice lies deep in our histories, but its impact is felt every day. It is not women and girls alone who suffer. It damages all of us. The evidence shows that investing in women and girls delivers major benefits for everyone in society. An educated woman has healthier children. She is more likely to send them to school. She earns more and invests what she earns in her family.

It is simply self-defeating for any community to discriminate against half its population. We need to challenge these self-serving and out-dated attitudes and practices -- as we are seeing in Iran where women are at the forefront of the battle for democracy and freedom.

I understand, however, why many political leaders can be reluctant about stepping into this minefield. Religion, and tradition, are powerful and sensitive area to challenge.

But my fellow Elders and I, who come from many faiths and backgrounds, no longer need to worry about winning votes or avoiding controversy -- and we are deeply committed to challenging injustice wherever we see it.

The Elders have decided to draw particular attention to the responsibility of religious and traditional leaders in ensuring equalityand human rights. We have recently published a statement that declares: "The justification of discrimination against women and girls on grounds of religion or tradition, as if it were prescribed by a Higher Authority, is unacceptable."

We are calling on all leaders to challenge and change the harmful teachings and practices, no matter how ingrained, which justify discrimination against women. We ask, in particular, that leaders of all religions have the courage to acknowledge and emphasize the positive messages of dignity and equality that all the world's major faiths share.

Although not having training in religion or theology, I understand that the carefully selected verses found in the holy scriptures to justify the superiority of men owe more to time and place -- and the determination of male leaders to hold onto their influence -- than eternal truths. Similar Biblical excerpts could be found to support the approval of slavery and the timid acquiescence to oppressive rulers.

At the same time, I am also familiar with vivid descriptions in the same scriptures in which women are revered as pre-eminent leaders. During the years of the early Christian church women served as deacons, priests, bishops, apostles, teachers and prophets. It wasn't until the fourth century that dominant Christian leaders, all men, twisted and distorted holy scriptures to perpetuate their ascendant positions within the religious hierarchy.

I know, too, that Billy Graham, one of the most widely respected and revered Christians during my lifetime, did not understand why women were prevented from being priests and preachers. He said: "Women preach all over the world. It doesn't bother me from my study of the scriptures."

The truth is that male religious leaders have had -- and still have -- an option to interpret holy teachings either to exalt or subjugate women. They have, for their own selfish ends, overwhelmingly chosen the latter.

Their continuing choice provides the foundation or justification for much of the pervasive persecution and abuse of women throughout the world. This is in clear violation not just of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights but also the teachings of Jesus Christ, the Apostle Paul, Moses and the prophets, Muhammad, and founders of other great religions -- all of whom have called for proper and equitable treatment of all the children of God. It is time we had the courage to challenge these views.

• Jimmy Carter was US president from 1977-81. The Elders are an independent group of eminent global leaders, brought together by Nelson Mandela, who offer their influence and experience to support peace building, help address major causes of human suffering and promote the shared interests of humanity.

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Reflections on a Baptist Church Sidetrip

http://jaia.gaia.com — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 17:44:16 GMT

A few weeks ago, during our cross country ride back to California, it had been suggested that I visit an old Civil War POW camp called Andersonville in Georgia. To do a healing ceremony there fit in well with the prison work I have been doing, and when I found out that it would work with our schedule to stay a few nights near the area, I didn't hesitate to make reservations at the RV park.

We went from Florida and spent a few days in Savannah, then headed over to central Georgia. That morning, I was getting ready to set out and looked online to confirm the directions to Andersonville. There, I saw a link to visit Jimmy Carter's hometown, which was nearly. I clicked it and was surprised to see that anyone was invited to come to the Sunday services at the church he attended and meet him. Of all things, it was Sunday.

I looked at the time and headed out, making it there only a few minutes late. After the secret service searched my bag, I went inside and found a seat in the back of the small Baptist Church.

I didn't grow up with any religion, but had always experienced openings into what felt to be other worlds through music and nature, and sometimes just spontaneously. After a particularly huge one of these experiences I was guided to a religious science church in Huntington Beach, CA. When I moved up to Santa Monica a few years later, everyone told me I just had to go to Agape www.agapelive.com , and have spent ten ten years now in various ministries, pilgrimages, programs, etc. It's been a good time.

The service that day was all about the importance of music in different aspects of the Christian religion. How music could move us in ways nothing else could. Wow. Right up my alley so to speak.

I talked with several people afterwards, in particular one of the singers, who said she could 'feel my spirit beaming from the back', and it make me think, how cool it was to be 'one of them'. That, without our religious beliefs, we are One. If anyone found out I was involved with a place like Agape, which is not a Christian church per se, I might have become an outsider... how strange it is. One Love, One Life, One human race, and how much we like to separate, separate, separate.... it blinds us to truth, as things become not much more than dogma, living in our minds, this is good, this is bad, this is what I am, this is what I'm not. Ha.

With each, I am this, and I am not that, we create another prison for ourselves, with walls so subtle we don't realize they are there. No longer free to be this or that, no longer free to investigate, we are this one thing and it is all we are now.

Of course this is different than choice, but in choice you can exist without any set title, and be free to choose in every moment. You can be free to follow your heart and follow the guidance of your soul because you are no longer a conditional being. You are an unconditioned, free spirit, choosing from the depths of your soul, not from your conditioned, "I am not this, I am that", mind.

Needless to say, I was very happy with the insights that came with this little morning surprise side trip ~ and the sweet people I met.

And, as I found out a week or so later, there was a bit more in the way of "there are not accidents" to the Jimmy Carter meeting....

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Now I'm Back

http://jaia.gaia.com — Sat, 19 Dec 2009 17:50:37 GMT

Here is my first little video offering- after more delays since the file had to be converted into another format to play the music on it. WHEW

Well Here We Go....

So grateful for the opportunity to create and to spread the love....

This film is dedicated to all of the women of the world--

Seeing a vision of all women liberated and free, taken care of and nurtured....

xxoo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eROcqT8RGUY

this is not yet supported on safari, but, will do it later from another computer-- in the meantime, click the link above

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Offering the 'Pearls of Great Price' to Swine

http://jaia.gaia.com — Sat, 19 Dec 2009 17:38:24 GMT

I've never liked that expression, you know, "don't throw pearls to swine". It seemed so crass and judgmental. Like, oh, I have beautiful pearls, and you, you are swine. You don't deserve them. You poor little swiney you.

It reeked of separation and arrogance it felt.

For the last few years this expression has found it's way to me here and there, and I am only now beginning to see it's great relevance in my life, and is beginning to make a lot of sense, and I can see now the value, wisdom and instruction in the statement.

Think about the many sacrifices we all make to attain deeper wisdom. Yes, we may love it, it may come naturally to us to seek out Truth. To be drawn to the inner adventure of going where no man has gone before in consciousness. But, also, think of the crazy courage it takes to act upon the guidance of your heart and soul, the hours of study, meditation and practice...the mining of talents and gifts and creative pursuits in service to a Higher Truth, a Greater Awareness, a Life Beyond was is known, and common and accepted as 'real'. The pure intention to serve humanity to the greatest of your capacity. The blood, sweat, and tears it takes to go to the deepest parts of yourself and do the deepest healing work on yourself. The humility it takes. The discipline. The purification. The clarification. All that one goes through to obtain those Pearls of Great Price. Hard fought lessons. Hard won Revelations.

To offer these pearls to those who have no interest in higher wisdom, greater freedom, deep sincere reflection is, at it's best, ridiculous. At it's worst it is self-sabotaging and degrading.

When asking myself, why would I do this? Why would I throw these pearls around as if they are chicken feed, thinking, well, someone might see what they are, even after someone has displayed little to no interest, or is more interested in debate than exploration and moving ahead....

... the answer that is emerging is that I have not held these pearls in the highest regard. I have not appreciated them the way they were meant to be appreciated. I have not valued them as they innately deserve to be valued.

So, a new awareness has been organically evolving into an intention, to value these peals as precious indeed, and share when asked by those only with a sincere desire, an honest inquiry, or with those who will be able to appreciate the significance, the beauty, and a life of joy and freedom that these pearls ultimately bring us.

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Living Thanksgiving

http://jaia.gaia.com — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 16:11:39 GMT

As I sit here in my little RV bed near Orlando, Florida, I can feel new life blossoming....

When I first intended to fully surrender to my true nature, to live in total authenticity and flow, I didn't realize just how much more I was going to have to give up!! Do we ever, really? I mean, freedom sounds so good, and it always feels right within arms reach. Then after some more years on the path, even after long periods of synchronistic flow, the next level may seem a bit more daunting. Well, heck, I didn't know I was going to have to give THAT up. And, I know I'm being guided to move in that direction, but, I wanted to go that way. Why do I have to go that way?? :)

Of course, in total open hearted trust and flow, there is no doubt, and the path can become effortless...

At the time I intended to let go of everything, everything, everything that was blocking my full unfoldment and full soul expression, I had already had a spiritual breakthrough moment which came from a crisis~ after that awakening experience, a hundred pounds had released fairly effortlessly from my body. After fifteen years of dieting and attempting to reverse sluggish genes, the weight seemed to fall off. After years of debilitating depression and shyness, I felt suddenly free and open, joyfully and fully participating in my life. After years of financial struggle an inheritance came in which provided the space for me to explore healing further, get a degree in Spiritual Psychology, travel and learn, nurture my own creative gifts of singing, songwriting, playing guitar, and writing, which included writing and publishing a book, as well as volunteering lots of time and also having my daughter at home with me and engaging un-schooling principles and practices.

After many years on this path, while facilitating a weekly class in a federal prison, facilitating classes in my living room in Santa Monica, many years experimenting further with the effect of diet on the mind, body, spirit with living foods, leading group cleanses, releasing coffee, sugar and all processed foods, then all cooked foods... it feels as if this cycle is coming to an end.

After taking our house to Georgia (our 32 foot RV) and getting certified in Electrodermal Stress Analysis, the message has come that it's time to go back to the Southern California area, at least for the time being, and set up shop.

I had been sharing with everyone that we will be in Florida for the winter, then probably head up the east coast in Spring, then return to the west coast in Fall. Well.... here comes, once again, that old saying, 'If you want to make the Goddess laugh, tell Her your plans" (okay, a modified quote).

I'm hearing this from more and more people, that the energy is at such a state of open-ended, non-linear simplicity, in combination with our continual release, change of plans is more common than not.

Through a series of synchronicity I find myself with a strong inner knowing this is a time to make the journey back, having received exactly what was needed for the next task at hand.

When I first started out on our journey to Georgia, and back east, at the end of August, I did a card reading, drawing a card from several of my decks. One of the cards was from an 'inner child' deck, the Wizard of Oz card.

In hindsight I can see how relevant and accurate this was. I can look back on the past few months and see the much needed aspects, insights and changes that have been integrating deeply.

One project I had been attempting to work on for a very long time, was editing and uploading videos for a video blog while living on the road. i see and experience so many amazing things that I would love to share, but the delays have been bordering on outrageous. Not to mention frustrating! The incompatibility with my JVC HD video camera and mac computer...it took months to get the download process down, as it is a fifteen step process, even the apple store coach couldn't believe what it took to get the video to download.....so these things, as well as a lack of internet connection to access tutorial videos, as well as my website delays, with my web guy no longer responding to any emails. It's been, well, in many ways, quite a slowing down, inner reflection time to say the least....

But yesterday morning, I finally did it. Finally put together the first video, which was filmed on Easter, and put with one of my recorded songs. It was SO MUCH FUN!! And, I'm so happy, beyond happy really, with how it came out!! Definitely worth the delays and learning curve that has been experienced for so long. It will be posted in a week or so, just getting some finishing touches on.

Not sure what this exactly all has to do with the blog title, Living Thanksgiving, other than, through it all, there has been a sense of gratitude for everything. Even the perceived delays, knowing on some level they are necessary. If there is total and complete knowing and faith, there is no frustration, but I can't say that was the case this time around. It has been in the past, but this time there was definitely a sense of getting just a we bit stuck in the mind, and assuming something was supposed to be happening, when it so obviously wasn't.

We really do get to choose how we go through any situation, with Thanksgiving and Trust, or resistance to the experience.

In this moment, and every coming moment, letting go of all resistance, all doubt~~~

feeling, seeing and knowing, and giving thanks for the beauty, the wisdom and the grace of the path, and of this moment. Giving thanks for this moment and for the awareness of the guidance, knowing everything ultimately serves the highest and best~~

knowing every action is dedicated and contributes to serving and giving and loving at the highest level imaginable, and, unimaginable.

As It Is.

In Thanksgiving, Jaia

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Ignorance is not Bliss, Ignorance is Ignorance

http://jaia.gaia.com — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 12:51:12 GMT

Our last day here in the Atlanta area, then we head down to Florida for the winter. This morning some thoughts woke me up, so I decided to write them down. It came through in an article format.

There are many things that keep us in the dark, keep us from going deeper, from pushing on when we know there might be more to the story. Here are three ways you might be blocking yourself from finding a deeper truth.

1. You aren’t curious enough.

Great thinkers are incredibly curious individuals. When you hear a new piece of information, what do you do? How do you consider it? Have you become comfortable with a certain source, then believe whatever they say? What if they don’t know all that you think they do? How could one person know all of the truth, without exception?

Do you tend to think superficially, looking at something to make logical sense, and as long as it sounds good, investigate no further?

Most of us would rather be comfortable than challenged. And, many of us reading that would say, well, of course, who wouldn’t? But this is a big problem. Out of our need to feel comfortable, we sacrifice our Soul, and while that may sound like an outlandish statement, if you stop and think about the times you have chosen comfort over deeper investigation into areas of truth, you will find that it holds up.

We don’t have the heart to follow that little voice in us that said, ‘hey, what did they just say, that didn’t sound right to me’ or, ‘How do you know that?’ ‘Is that all there is to the story?’ How did the opposing side come to their conclusion?’

We’ve become afraid of questioning the status quo because we are too stressed, too tired, and maybe too lazy. Or, possibly, too trained to not think for ourselves and let everyone else do our thinking for us. The old adage ignorance is bliss is no longer holding up. Ignorance is not bliss. Ignorance is ignorance. While you may be able to have some false sense of comfort by keeping your head under that proverbial sand, that illusion will only be temporary. Eventually the piper will be paid by a lack of energy and enthusiasm when you let others do your thinking for you.

The solution to this lack of investigative motivation is not to find a way to somehow manipulate ourselves into being better thinkers, or to judge ourselves, but inspiration.If you can let your curiosity factor kick into high gear no one will be able to stop you from questioning and thinking.

2. You aren’t willing to be wrong.

Some of us would just about rather die that be proved wrong, especially in situations where we are trying to impress or finesse. Imagine you are at a dinner party, seated at a table where you don’t know anyone, and you make a statement about some trivial fact, and are immediately challenged by someone. Everyone else agrees with the other person, saying, oh yes, I’ve heard that too. How would you feel? Chopped liver comes to mind.

How did you feel back in grade school when you raised your hand, sure of the answer, and when you were called on, blurted out the right answer, only to be told you were wrong? Possibly this didn't phase you at all, but if it did, and if you tend to take things like this personally, taking it as a measure of your intellectual ability and level of competence, you are less likely to come to well thought out conclusions of depth because you will be too afraid of being proved wrong. You will more likely tend to stay tucked within the status quo, because, at least it won’t be your own ideas that are being attacked, you will be able to name a hundred people that think the same way you do, and, when put on the spot, you probably will.

If our curiosity factor is high enough, we would rather know the truth than be right. Our ego lives in right or wrong, and it loves and needs to be right. It especially likes to be right when others are wrong. I thrives on separation and being the top dog so to speak. But what if we could step out of the need or even desire to be right, and just sincerely want to know what is really going on? What is the truth, really?

In this non-attached and free space, if someone tells us we are wrong or off the mark this ideally can help us to think more deeply on a subject, clarify certain aspects of it, or, possibly even lead us into a new direction we had never considered before.

But, if our main objective is to defend a fixed position, no amount of evidence will ever be able to move us in any new direction at all. We will be stuck. But, at least in our own minds, we will always be right.

3. You aren’t willing to stand alone.

This is probably the most difficult block of all. We are social creatures. No man is an island. It feels good to be part of the gang, to look like others do, think like others do, and to fit in. Sometimes though we get the idea that if we had a difference in opinion or a different idea about how things worked than our friends and family did, we would be ostracized. In this thinking, we may not be too far off base. Can you think of an idea that you had, or a time you were intrigued by another type of group or idea, and were immediately cut down by those around you? ‘Are you kidding me? Those people are nuts..or...Why would you want to try that?’ Sometimes it comes down to: Are you with us, or are you with them.

There are some who will never be able to tap into their true brilliance because of their deeper need to be loved and accepted. The risk of losing a friend or losing being thought of a certain way by the group is too threatening.

Recently there have been several things that have just felt way off base to me, things that the people around me were highly supportive of. One was the health care bill- health care for everyone. But, it didn't seem too many people were thinking about the fact that our health care system is archaic and filled with greed, corruption and lies. Over 150,000 people die a year from drugs that have been 'proven' safe and effective by the FDA. People are facing financial ruin because of outrageous hospital bills- and these are people that pay their insurance bills! Do we really want this for everyone? You've got to be kidding me. I do understand that on the surface it sounds good and appropriate, that everyone will be taken care of, but the truth is, many of the people in the system now are not being taken care of.

It's the same thing with education. What, test scores are dropping? Kids are dropping out in record numbers? Record violence? Well, let's do much, much more of the same. That should take care of it. And, while I did like the energy and the hope that came with the Obama election, I could just never quite fully board the Obama train. People then may assume that I was for the other side, but, as I am seeing it more and more, there is no other side. There is one party and that is the government party. And of course, none of this fits into the current obsessive thought that we create our reality and we don't dare say anything negative because we will automatically create it. We have even managed to turn a spiritual law into a superficial dose of magical thinking, preventing us again from doing real thinking. While the law of attraction is a law, and, taken into a deeper space of practice and awareness, is Truth, it's not the only law there is.

As children, before we were taught by those around us what we should be thinking, we loved to explore the environment around us and ask questions, loved to find out what was really going on, without being afraid what anyone thought, or of being wrong. We were in it for the real stuff; to discover and grow, and find the truth. Maybe we were wiser than we thought, on some level we must have known that in the end it was the truth that would set us free.

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The Natural Approach

http://jaia.gaia.com — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 04:14:14 GMT

Well, after several opportunities to come out to Georgia, this CSA machine finally did it. Our continuing adventure in the RV led us about a little under an hour west of Atlanta.

After such a sudden and profound spiritual awakening experience many years ago that had an immediate effect on my physical body and situation- everything changed!- I have been led to learn more about the body end of things, and after a fairly tough anatomy/physiology/holistic medicine exam I am now certified as a technician in electrodermal stress analysis- which is a process using a biofeedback machine and the meridian points to pick up energetic blocks in various organs and systems, including the emotional body. The machine detected a chiropractic issue I had no awareness of, and after two treatments, lead to the awareness of a hidden emotional block, which lead to another experience of a spiritual nature. I feel like a different person. Or like 'myself' again after many years of feeling like something was off, but not ever knowing what it was and not daring to step into a conventional medical office

where the only solution would be to give drugs to manage symptoms.

This is one of the main differences in holistic care, finding the cause and assisting the client in bringing their body back into balance via natural means, very different than allopathic, which treats symptoms and manages disease with synthetic, usually toxic, drugs. There have probably been over a hundred people I have met now, or have seen them speak, who were told by conventional medicine there was nothing else that could be done, and then completely recovered through natural means. When western medicine says there is no cure for certain diseases, and there is nothing they can do....what they really mean is they do not know of a cure, and they do not have the tools available to them to help the client recover and come back into balance and well being. It is interesting, as those of us know in the healing or naturopathic field, without a medical license you can't say you treat anything, or diagnose anything, or cure anything, because only a synthetic, and usually toxic, drug us allowed to cure under our current law.

This law was made to protect us.

Or was it?

Not that there isn't a place for the western approach, mainly in emergency situations-- if your leg is falling off an emotional process or an herb, a better diet and exercise is not going to cut it.

When someone asked what they can do to avoid getting the flu-- do you know the number one thing a doctor on the stage recently said? Wash your hands. Funny!! Stay away with people that have the flu when possible--

it's good to be reminded of the obvious.

There is also a homeopathic with the swine flu strain in it, in fact all flu strains since 1991, that the company I am a technician with offers called Flu Stop. The Dr. actually used it on the patient mentioned in my previous post when she got the flu a few days into the treatment he was giving her and said he was impressed with it.

She had the flu pretty severe, but only for a day. It is used as a preventative, only five drops a day, and if you get the flu, triple that, or use hourly until it is gone. Personally, I have a bottle but am not guided to take it right now. I get the message to just keep on with the living vegan food path, keep the lymph circulating through exercise and follow your bliss, staying in a vibe where the flu or any other disease does not exist.

I also know there was a reason I was given a bottle and will keep it on hand.

If anyone is interested in having the homeopathic flu stop, let me know. I am still at the clinic where I can pick them up and ship them to you.

Also, if you are interested in an electrodermal stress analysis test it can be done distance, using hair and saliva shipped overnight. If this speaks to you let me know, or if you know anyone in the Orlando, Florida area that would be interested, we're headed down to Florida for the Winter.

The adventure continues.....

So grateful to be living in these 'end times' as they call it-- the end of the manifestation of greed, separation, and fear. Whew, what a time to be on the planet!!

Much heartfelt blessings to all of us in this time of change and soulful empowerment!!

And you will know the Truth, and the Truth will set you Free!

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Not Taking it Lying Down

http://jaia.gaia.com — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 17:47:41 GMT

Blessings and love in these spiritually auspicious, albeit precarious

times on planet earth. As the old paradigm continues to fall away

in favor of the New, or the Real, or Natural, or Divine.... whatever

word or words might be used, it is true that the old might not go down

quietly, or easily. This is just as true in a planetary sense as it is in a

personal. This note is an invitation, a reminder, a smile to remind us all of

our Real Nature, True Purpose, and of the miraculous beings We Are...

and to not let fear or hype get in the way of Truth, and common sense.

Even though I had heard a lot about media cover ups and the power of

the media to control people's thoughts and behavior, it wasn't until a trip

to Italy in 04 that I saw firsthand the extent of purposeful manipulation

and the lack of objectivity in American media. I was in Rome when Bush

came through to meet with the Pope. The entire city shut down and a

million people took to the street in protest-- I got separated from my

group and bus, so I marched with them, as many in our group ended up

doing, finding our way back to the hotel later in the evening. It was a

historic event. The next day on the front page of the newspaper in Italy,

there was a picture of the Pope waving his finger in former President

Bush's face. When I asked friends and family if they had heard about the

event they all said they hadn't, and, when I asked them to save me a

paper I did see a one or two inch one paragraph article in a back page.

On the front page was Bush giving a medal to the Pope.

What reason would they have to not report what really happened? And

while the conspiracy theorist/skeptic in us might see a lot of reasons, you

could say, they did report what happened. They just didn't report all of

what happened, and, with the slant of, you know, those crazy Italians.

Just like other slants that get us to think certain things about certain people.

Those jealous French. Violent, insane, Arabs. Third world, less fortunate,

less intelligent, less evolved, 'others'. ( Incidentally, I heard yesterday

that up to 80% of those anal Germans are not getting vaccinated even

though it is being offered for free by the government.)

For those that travel and use alternative media sources, and, especially

those that meditate, question things, and think about things, it is getting

harder to separate us in to groups, pit us against each other-

and most importantly- lie to us.

Ultimately, though, we have to take responsibility for what we choose to

believe and experience on this Earth walk.

Instead of asking ourselves how we can protect ourselves and be safe,

since these questions, no matter how good and relevant they might

sound, stem from fear, we need to be diligent in asking, "How can I participate

in the New Paradigm?" "What is the Truth of the situation?" "What is my Soul

Purpose and how can I Serve Life?" It feels that if we are not actively

participating in the New Earth energy we can be sucked into the lies. Love and

Fear are not emotions, they are energy streams. While it is Truth that only

Love is Real, it is true that while in human form we have free will to choose to

act from fear or from love, and subsequently live in fear or love. This has

always been the Divine Opportunity here on Planet Earth. This is not a

simple choice, but in the end a complex and hard one freedom that comes

from a pure intention to understand and see things deeply, to share and

love selflessly, and to maintain a diligent awareness at all times of our

true motivations and desires. The last few weeks I've spent a lot of time in

nature, meditation and contemplation, and am grateful for the even greater

clarity that has come forward. This time also coincides with a new cycle of

energy, and it feels a coming together of many many years of experiments,

experience, training, preparation, endurance, and guidance.

There is no going back~~ not for any of us

The following is something the journey has led me to this past weekend--

after I was led to let go of my home in Santa Monica a few years ago now,

and move in full time to an RV, no matter how far we travelled and how

much we did, it was still a very introspective, in the womb kind of time....

this has changed now. I will be getting video up soon with interviews that

I did a while back when we first set out-- and am in conversation about

booking talks for the Living Beyond Belief book--can't even begin to tell about the delays in everything that has been intended and worked on these past years, but now there is understanding and gratitude as to why and what was going on~~

The Dalai Lama has recently said it was the Western Woman who would save

the world-- and over the years I have heard this again and again, it is about

the women waking up....that nothing can really happen until the women wake

up to their true nature, claim their power, (or take it back, whatever the

appearance may be), and step into the 'Goddesses' they truly are. And although the Goddess may have gotten a bad rap in collective consciousness, we are not talking about playing dress up and taking a belly dancing class, (even though dance, sacred dance, is a powerful way to connect with the divine feminine), we are talking about rising to the true She that lives in every woman as a seed of potential. The Enlightened Beingness, the unequivocal Power of the Mystery. The non-linear, out of perceived balance, out of time, out of space, Wonder, Awe, Beauty, Wisdom, and Compassion that Lives in Her.

As Her.

The world can no longer wait ~

No matter if we chose to come into a female or male form, we all have a role to fill in the birthing of the New World. Even though a new life is grown inside of a woman's body, she does not do this without the seed of man. This is not about superiority or inferiority, it is not about ego, better than or less than, it is not about guilt, revenge, resentment, blame, intolerance or separation~~~~~ it is about partnership and the clarity of one's role in the process of birthing the New Earth. Each being has their own work to ask what their role is in these times, given the context. The birth process is not only rich with metaphor in these times, but it is also an interesting observation that women used to squat to give birth, but now are asked or made to lie down for the most part, which, if you think about it, works against gravity and doesn't make much sense~ it comes to me to say that it is about time for us to stand up, to forgive and let go of all the ways we have been overpowered and forced to lie down, sometimes in unspeakable and innumerable ways, or deemed the inferior sex, but, the time has come to let any and all of that go if we haven't yet, and get up again, Gaia needs us.....

As we are taught to work against our natural rhythms and cycles, and against the innate wisdom of the body, and even gravity, it has been a dawning awareness over the last few years of holistic health studies to see just how much we have lost in the way of common sense, in favor of our technological and scientific advancements~

especially around health of the body~

For those not aware of this particular case, the video below is about the woman who could no longer walk or talk after getting the flu vaccination

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mh5F5wP8RdU&feature=related

Here is the woman, Desiree, after the treatment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GD1BAxVnFdc

Here is an interview with Dr. Buttar after he treated her:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZL0VJ7F34Hk

The doctor who treated her spoke yesterday at the conference I was attending.

He has also successfully treated hundreds of autistic children to remove heavy

metals from the body, caused by vaccines. The media is saying the case of this woman is one in a million. At the talk yesterday he said she has received over 3,000 letters of people saying they have had severe reactions and similar symptoms to hers.

The recovery is one aspect, the story he told to us as to how she came to him is another in itself, and was incredibly inspiring to remind me just how amazing all of this works together. How each of us is an integral part of the plan unfolding here.

And, have no doubt, it is unfolding.

As he shared things I got the same feeling I had during 9/11... when I happened to be at a Tony Robbins event with over 2,000 people from all over the world on the big island of Hawaii. There was a deep remembering of coming here for a reason, and that same feeling came yesterday as he spoke. It felt historic and I knew the things he was saying were true.

To find out more about Dr. Buttar go to www.drbuttar.com/blog

The adventure continues.....

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Ooooookay in Oklahoma

http://jaia.gaia.com — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 15:59:55 GMT

Well, the journey has definitely begun....

After drawing the 'Yellow Brick Road' card from an inner child deck, when asking about my upcoming road trip-- more than a trip since the RV is full time home now-- I knew it was going to be a powerful journey....

The Neem Karoli Baba ashram in Taos was a direct hit. After initially connecting with Baba initially through a friend in Hawaii ( I couldn't figure out why people called him Maharaji, I know him as Baba, and now after reading just a bit of the books I bought at the ashram I see he is also referred to as Baba), I knew there was more to come. I have been to darshan with others, some I have no doubt are highly connected and in a space to warrant the title of 'guru', but I never had the sense they were 'my' guru. From the first moment of connection I knew Baba was my guru. In the same way I knew the Agape Spiritual Center was my home, my family.

And, my family continues to expand, as does the vision.

Driving around Oklahoma this morning was haunting in a way. I have never had much interest in the South. Europe, India, Africa, yes yes yes, Canada, Mexico, the East Coast, West Coast....but there was something about the South that always freaked me out. Maybe it was the whole slave thing. Probably it was the whole slave thing. But, something is different now, in that the need to stay away or fear has been replaced by the need to understand and love. The heart opened this morning after some very vivid dreams, a video of compassion and beauty, and after the tears there was just space... a space where everything and everyone was welcome. There was no other space anyone could go, or be cast out to, there was only love. I have a sense this reawakening and deepening is coming from this connection with Baba. At the ashram I sat alone in the temple with the Hanuman statue and Baba's presence for quite some time, a few hours maybe. Tears, laughter, joy, lots of communication and deep remembering. A newfound desire to serve. Again.

As I sit here in the Red Cup coffee shop, a hip little hang out in OKC as it is referred to, I think how fitting it is called Ok. As I drove around this morning I kept saying to myself..... oooooohhhh kay...... I had never seen a chinese drive through, or a large billboard sign with bragging rights of famous local borns... quirky, funky, homey, in need of some TLC, I'm coming to love this place.

Now on to the Apple store to see if I can get my video on to this mac, and then onto a farmer's market hosted by the State Dept of Health for it's employees and the public, since, according to the write up on it, 'Oklahomans eat fewer fruits and veggies than any other state.' Probably not the best place to open a raw food veggie place-- or-- maybe the perfect place to do so.....

Hmmm......

Following the yellow brick road...

the adventure continues....

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Back at the Tree

http://jaia.gaia.com — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 14:42:51 GMT

Well, we ended up at the Tree of Life, and I was quite surprised by the detour and getting a strong taste of what this trip will be like. Tuning in and following the guidance. Had planned to go straight up to Flagstaff from the 10fwy, then found myself not making the turn, and next wondering if I could make Shabbat at the Tree. www.treeoflife.nu

What a beautiful day of flow~~ will be uploading the great video we took yesterday of a man who is doing amazing things to help migrants here in Arizona near the border. He has much more going on than I even know about-- satellite programs with high schools and gardening-- free produce from a garden we toured yesterday to those in need--- will share more when I can... for now... have a date with John Phillips in the Tree of Life garden~~ oh it will be wonderful to find out how to download and upload-- help is coming!! Knowing help for that is on it's way!!

After the garden interview we will hit the road and see how far we can make it today, next stop Taos.... at least that's what I think at the moment.

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Savel Trafe

http://jaia.gaia.com — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 14:38:33 GMT

A few years back while in the UK, playing at Findhorn and St. James in London, one of us on the trip yelled out these words as we temporarily went our separate ways: "Savel Trafe"... of course she meant travel safe, but it has become an ongoing saying and appropriate as we head out across the country in the rv.

I let go of my condo in Santa Monica in October of 07, moved into a 32ft rv, and have since have been wondering why. Not that we haven't made some travels ~ going up north to get certified in living food nutrition at the Living Light Institute, spending three months at the Tree of Life in an organic gardening apprenticeship in Arizona, but continually being led back to LA... until the theme began to be, Escape from LA. We just couldn't seem to make the escape. Until now. Finally. :)

The trip really started on Wednesday night with Michael Beckwith and Rickie, and the Agape community www.agapelive.com . They will actually start live streaming of services this Sunday... sweet! I just stepped down as the director of the living food ministry there-- and also let them know at the prison I wouldn't be coming in to facilitate the weekly classes I had been for the last three years or so, for some time, who knows how long, since we're not sure how long we'll be out here on the road, or where we are headed for sure. It is the vision that came a long time ago-- living out on the road and being guided by Spirit.

The journey has begun.

After the service at Agape a friend invited me to a little gathering in Beverly HIlls.... I was tired, but was guided to go and it ended up being soooo sweet-- meeting a few new lovely beings, and on the way out given a sweet prayer/blessing by Dreaming Bear www.dreamingbear.net while we were all in a circle... what a send off~~

The next day we hit the road, having to drop off a few things with my daughters day, my ex, in Orange County. After our many years of dysfunction and confusion, we are coming to new levels of relating, loving, sharing and supporting. I am continually blown away by the power of love and forgiveness. A strong sense of completion and new beginnings....

We then finally made it out to the desert- Palm Springs- where I had to drop off a heater with my friend Randy. He had brought the heater down to my Long Beach apartment since the one there was broken, and when I let the place go a few months ago, put it in my car. Didn't want to tow a heater across country, and, it was quite a moment, knocking on the door, on a day that had been about 113 degrees, and his friend Christopher opening it, not knowing I was coming, looking at me, then at the heater, and me saying, ' I thought you would need this.'.

I was bummed to have missed Randy, but trusting all was in flow. Christopher has been going through a deep initiation with the sudden passing of his older brother (33), and gave me a bundle of sage to burn at an appropriate place, wishing his brother Richard good thoughts and savel trafes.

The adventure had begun.

I am planning to go to Taos, but the spirit guided me back to the Tree of Life for a few days first, so here I sit in the Patagonia RV park, getting ready to head up to brunch with John Phillips, and my Mum (see entry on Mum in this blog), who happens to be out from London/Budapest.

Shabbat was so sweet last night and it feels like I had only been gone a few days.

So, knowing this adventure is filled with delight and synchronistic divinity as we savel trafe across this country and find hidden nuggets of beauty, wonder, joy, freedom to share.... I know Life has it all planned out, all I have to do is listen and follow and go with the flow....

I am listening....

xxoo......the adventure continues.....xxoo

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The New Activism

http://jaia.gaia.com — Thu, 14 May 2009 14:10:44 GMT

As the desert sun began it's early climb, and I found my way back to this world, I found these words in my head.

The new activism.

Hmmm......what?

Always love these things that come from the in between space, the space between dreams and reality, it was where the subtitle of my book came from: "how to ditch the life your mind created and start living the one your soul intended", and how original songs, solutions and visions have found their way into this world.

Sometimes they are difficult to translate and I never quite figure out what they mean. That wasn't the case this morning.

When I sat with what these words meant it was fairly evident right away~ in fact, there are probably many books out already on the topic.

Carrying signs and picketing is passe, writing to our congressman, old hat. Yes, we can still do these kinds of things, but many of us have taken Gandhi's words to heart by being the change we wish to see in the world. This is the new activism.

The new activism doesn't whine about others not changing, or complain about the way things are, it puts the ball in our court, it puts our money where our mouth is, and inspires us to clean up our own act, while inspiring others to do the same. And, not standing on a 'holier than thou' pedestal, but with a sense of enthusiasm and joy.

If we want peace, instead of making our way to the street with signs, we need to first make our way to our meditation mat. In the same way, if we want clean air and water, we have to be the change we wish to see in the world. How can we expect to have a clean environment while our inner environment is full of toxins? It doesn't really make sense to expect any different.

How can we continue to ignore the fact that it takes about 2,500 gallons to produce one pound of meat ( a median estimate), while it takes about 25-35 gallons to produce a pound of various veggies? Not to mention the waste factory farmed animals produce, creating what are known as dead zones in various water systems. With all of the talk about water issues, why is this information not on the front page?

What's so great about the new activism, is you have total control. You are not dependent on politicians to change laws, which could take decades, which we do not have, or never happen, given the many kickbacks, or incentives for things to stay the same. You don't have to wait for things to change out there, you get to be that change. How cool is that? After you've changed, you can still get out in the streets with signs and still write letters and make calls, but you won't feel like a victim to a system anymore because you will see the real power is with the people, and our ability to change our ways. It is a good time to take responsibility for our environment, for our inner environment, and as more of us do, we will watch the outer environment be the change as well.

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Return of the Ancestors pt III

http://jaia.gaia.com — Fri, 08 May 2009 01:39:57 GMT

I have only been on Native American reservation land once before, when I was part of a pilgrimage that I was hired to drive a van for a few years before. We travelled to many well known sites and one day after a tour on Hopiland we were invited to come and see where our tour guide and his family lived. It reminded me of being in Africa, or in India, where the roads were dirt and the houses were not much more than some plaster, rocks, and prayers. Even though I live in an RV now (admittedly a cushy one with all the fixins) I have always felt a little, you know, not quite right in seeing a people who were there first ending up with the short end of the stick so to speak. I mean, we can say all is fair in love and war, we can call it capitalism, call it progress and even survival of the fittest, and we do. But there's also another word for all of it, it seems to me: unfair. We can make all kinds of rationalizations and intellectual projections, economic demographics, racist generalizations, and at the end of the day there is still something wrong in Denmark, or, in this case, Tuba City, Arizona.

Due to some kind of construction injunction in 1966, the paved road stopped far before reaching the house where we were to gather, and from what I understood due to this injunction about 80% of the homes in this very large area were without electricity. As I drove onto the dirt road, following the well placed 'Return of the Ancestors' hand printed signs with arrows, there were times, due to the excess windblown sand on the road, combined with some pretty deep groves, that I wondered if I was going to get stuck. The 4x4 was really coming in handy at that point, even though the real reason for getting a 4x4 ford escape hybrid was so that I could tow her behind Spice Girl. And, yes, she has a name too, Queen Jasmine.

When I saw the busses that were carrying the elders come down that same road a little while later I went into spontaneous prayer, then noticed they didn't end up coming in all the way. And, after they went around another way and came up to where we were, they didn't stay there long. 'Where did the busses go?', someone asked. 'They don't like the wind,' someone answered.

Well, they weren't the only ones.

After we had gathered, and talked, and built a huge bonfire (with ten feet logs, probably so they wouldn't blow away), and om'd and sang, I made my way over to the back end of Queen Jasmine where a warm sleeping bag was laid out. I had slept there the night before when we stayed in the Grand Canyon park. It was quite comfortable, more comfortable than expected. I ended up pretty glad that my enthusiastic offers for people to come up there with me were not taken up on- it did turn out to be much smaller than i first thought. Comfy, but snug.

I woke up the next morning to sound of that hard wind and occasional sand hitting the car. When I opened the door to leave later that day the gust was so strong I couldn't open it at first. And, after the sunrise ceremony, and after frybread in the gathering house, one of the Dine elders said the wind blew like that for three months, all Spring, and that it was a good day for them.

I thought of my friend Temba who started a home building project for a family in Pine Creek, www.naturescompassion.com He started a whole movement and by the end of the deal it may be a whole eco-village. I could see those big white windmills going in the wind- my God, the electricity they could get there from those!

The sunrise ceremony had started, with maybe a hundred or so making the early call around the fire before dawn. There was a song, with hand motions, and then one of the elders (from a region in Canada I was told afterwards) came forward inside the circle, saying prayers, dancing, yelling, running, spinning. It was an odd ceremony honestly. At times when he would turn and whisper something he would almost lose his balance, making him look drunk, striking me as so oddball looking I would have to hold in a laugh, then, a moment later, some brilliant phrase and delicate and graceful movement would take my breath away. It was like life, I thought. Ridiculous and kind of rude, uninteresting or banal one moment, and then, boom, daringly, astoundingly and profoundly brilliant the next. It was so unscripted at times though it had that mad quality of motley crew-ness, of crassness, bordering on being a bit rude to the senses, and something that I had heard the first day from one of the elders rang true: when ceremony becomes ritual it loses it's life force and power. Well, this was certainly not ritual- it was a true ceremony, that's for sure. One thing about a lot of these ceremonies I noticed as well- they were long. The kind of long where you were forced into the practice of watching your mind go into story and judgment, and were forced to watch your breath, you know, pushed beyond your boredom point at times and had to practice the fine art of patience. Oh, the joys of the western conditioned mind. Expecting to be entertained every second of every day with billboards and commercials and flashy nonsense. I kept having to remind myself of where I was and what we were participating in~ we had gathered for Mother Earth, for Peace on Earth. I was quite impressed I have to say with everyone's patience level and respect for the proceedings. It was actually a wonderful diversion from the usual diversion, you know.

Anyways, after the medicine man's prayer movement, for lack of a better term, guessing there probably isn't one, a Native American woman in the circle began to speak as well. She was speaking in her native tongue, and after a few minutes her strong voice began to break and she began to force her words through tears. She broke into english for part of it, apologizing to the water, to the animals, to the air, to our Mother, asking for forgiveness for what has been done to her. Pretty soon many of those in the circle were in tears, maybe a few thinking, hey, I am living a fairly ecologically sustainable life, but that didn't seem to be the point. We had a responsibility to the Earth, if we had to apologize on the behalf of some of our brothers and sisters, so be it. And, come on, living in America, or any other industrialized and westernized city, you can pretty much bet you are contributing to the destruction of Mother Earth on some level. It's just the way we've set it all up.

Then there was the irony, that not too far from the ceremonial fire was a flagpole with the American flag raised up high, whipping in the wind, whipping so hard at times it seemed like it was going to rip in two. But it didn't. It held strong the whole time; invincible like.

A poem came from the experience a day or two later.

I ended up leaving later that morning after the fry bread. I'm used to eating raw vegan, and it was all a bit too much. Maybe eating the fry bread was part of some kind of penance. Some kind of major guilt trip feeling. It was maybe just a little too much for this middle class white girl, who, from the beginning had her mother read books with Native American themes to her over and over, who married a Native American man, and whose child is part Native American, and who, even though her skin is white, part of her Spirit is Native~~and maybe still lives in a bit of a conflict about that odd combination. Or, maybe it doesn't have anything to do with that at all. Maybe it is just about that other part. The part about it being supremely unfair. Yeah, that's it.

The Forgotten People.

Meeting for years,

again.

Praying for help.

One day it comes

It must feel like a miracle!

Hundreds of beings

from all over the world,

the Return of the Ancestors

Gathering as One

The Spring wind

throwing sand in our faces

scolding us

forcing us

to remember

our brothers and sisters

on the reservation

where have you been? it asks

The wind

it is now trying to rip

the American flag that flies above us,

but the flag wins,

again,

and the bonfire burns hot

as the sunrise ceremony

gets under way

Another day,

a good day, as it was called,

it blows like this all Spring.

A woman’s prayer

starting strong and even,

begins to burn hot like the fire,

and whip in the wind like the flag,

it comes spitting out

with tears, now,

it comes from the hollow place inside, now,

where the forgotten ones reside,

howling, begging, desperate,

and her tears become our tears

as her pain becomes our pain

we carry it with her

as her love becomes our love

and we travel together

down a road

in a land where

harsh and relentless

conditions

are called

‘good’

and where a people who

have been

forgotten

have now been remembered

The large circle forms again

after fry bread and fruit

mutton soup and blue corn mush

in the meeting place

And those whose eyes

are used to eating sand

in the Spring

are still

But those who are new to the land,

rub their eyes like children

crying

And open their hearts to the ones

who call themselves

forgotten

and will maybe now

or maybe in time

call themselves

something

else

Depending on

maybe

if we will remember

or forget them

again

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Return of the Ancestors pt II

http://jaia.gaia.com — Thu, 07 May 2009 20:00:28 GMT

The insights and integrations and inspirations are continuing to come through as my daughter and I are now back in California. We made the drive from Sedona/Cottonwood to Palm Desert and even though I ventured back into the LA area in our tow car yesterday, Spice Girl is happily parked and hooked up in Palm Desert ( I know, I know, Spice Girl is a silly name for a 32 foot RV, for one's home, but, they had the color listed as spice and it came spontaneously-- I told my daughter I wouldn't call it that, but she'll never read this :) A friend once said, Spice Girl?! Well, she's big boned I guess.

Anyways, after getting back to La La Land and Agapeland, www.agapelive.com, back with those who have been my spiritual comrades since I first found my way to the community in 2000, well, things that occurred at the gathering began to take on an even deeper meaning. There is so much appreciation for those that choose to hold a high space of love, compassion and joy- even if it doesn't get done perfectly, it gets done. Even if at times we seem to bumble along on our path, at least we are on the path, becoming ever more aware of all the trappings of ego, illusion, and, well, planned pandemics and planned profits for big pharma, and at the same time, ever more aware of our True Identity of "Inexhaustable Good" as the founder Michael Beckwith would say.

During the gathering I connected with several of the elders, many of which lived lives so completely different than we can imagine. Many were healers and shamans, and there was one in particular who captured my attention as a group of us had lunch under a shade tree in Dead Horse State Park in Cottonwood, Arizona.

I was a working volunteer that day, sporting my neon green 'harmony keeper' t-shirt, helping to direct traffic. Actually, I was not much more than a landmark by lunch time. Just someone for the person at the post ahead to refer to : "see that girl sitting under that tree in that bright green t-shirt? - turn left there".

So, I was happy and delighted when my post tree was chosen by several people to have lunch under, including a few elders and a translator. It turns out one of the elders, from Bolivia, was only 26. Not really an elder, but asked to come along on the trip, and if there was any consolation, the kids in his village referred to him as 'old man'. He was one of those shaman shapeshifters to be sure, since every time I looked at him he looked at little different. In fact, when he first sat down he looked like an elder to me and it was only after he started talking that I saw he wasn't that old, but then when he shared his age when someone asked-- wow-- now way.

He got to talking, through the translator, and it was clear he had a gift for channeling the divine energy through~ it was then that I realized that although I had heard a lot of wisdom in the previous two days, and had definitely felt some shifts with the many ceremonies, I had heard a lot of people talking about things, not so much with the energy. There were exceptions, but a lot of it was talk about, rather than talk with. Some in the mind, rather than the heart. There was talk about the Mayan Calendar, what we are coming to, the ways we are destroying the planet, the ways we can make it better, how we are all one, but, this talk under the tree was different.

After a little while he looked up and there were three birds flying in a small circle- not ordinary birds, but eagles. These same three had been flying above me when I was playing my music out by the green river the day before, and when he said that birds gather when he speaks I wondered if the birds gathered for my singing in the same way, and as soon as I wondered it I felt a strong sense of peace, a gentle kundalini, a confirmation.

When someone asked him how we can lessen our attachment to money, to not be bound by financial concerns and make them our primary focus, he picked up a plastic container of hummus that was sitting on the picnic blanket and said it was the problem. We all stared at him, waiting to see what he meant, this old-young-old-young man, sitting there on the grass, under that tree, holding a little plastic container, saying it was the problem of our obsessive money issues. It seemed silly for a moment, until he began to speak again. He said that in his village everyone works and helps in growing the food. People help to plant, to water, to harvest, to mulch.......no one pays for their food. He said that when you have to give money for what you put into your body you become connected to money in a way that is not healthy.

Now, that is a paraphrase, but it was the first time this connection, this thought, had ever been entertained in my brain. Wow. That is deep. Nature doesn't pay for her seeds, or water, or for the bees to pollenate, and when our physical survival is based on our ability to acquire something that is not even natural to us, it a way it makes a part of us unnatural, or at least dependent on something unnatural. Hmmm.... amazing food for thought. He went on to say that it is a little different when you pay for something that you wear, since it goes on the outside of your body, and not on the inside.

Now, I'm not saying that we are all contaminated with money or tainted by the unholy and damned dollar, but, what I am saying is what he said made me pause and think, and, I do believe, tap further into the vision of a world where people all work together to feed each other, take care of each other, love each other- not say, well, you don't have any of this money stuff, so you starve, sorry, I have my twenty houses to take care of. There's just something a little, you know, weird about that.....

which brings me to the weirdness I felt being on the reservation, but I think we'll save that for next time......gotta start heading back to the desert.....

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Return of the Ancestors

http://jaia.gaia.com — Sat, 02 May 2009 20:23:59 GMT

I have sat at the keyboard several times, attempting to put some words to the twelve day experience of the Return of the Ancestor gathering here in Northern Arizona from April 18-28th. It seems like eons ago now, even though it has only been a few days. I am wondering, was it just a dream? I am wondering, is it all just a dream. Well, of course....

But doesn't it seem so real? Isn't it so easy to forget with all of those important things that pull us off the path, out of our deep intention to remember what is real? Remember the dream.....

The first few days of the gathering took place on a field at Sedona High School.....the Condor Dancers opened with a beautiful and dream-like presentation. These kind of things manage to take me into that otherworld, if I don't already happen to be there, reminding me of this worlds fabrication of phenomenon. What is real? What is time? Who are we really, and what are we really doing here?

I was a volunteer at the event, with an agreement to work two of the days, and from what the event director shared, this group of condor dancers came from such a remote region that the messenger bringing the invitation to attend the gathering had to travel up a mountain on a donkey and wasn't even heard from for three weeks. The invitation needed to be deeply considered, prayed over, and intended upon~~and in the meantime to even obtain a visa, plane tickets needed to be purchased. So, after the invitation was accepted, and plane tickets were purchased, everyone then waited upon officials to approve their visas. Thankfully, they were approved.

Something that was mentioned several times by many of the elders was a world without borders....where all people were able to travel freely.....and although this was not the first time I had heard of this, it was the first time I had a full vision and feeling of existing in that world. The astonishing simplicity of a world where all people travel freely on Mother Earth, without needing permission from government officials, without old paradigm ideas of separation and fear. Would there really be masses trying to flood the borders of the US? I know everyone has been sold on the American Dream, but there are many who have been able to see the shadow side of excessive materialism and elements of the American nightmare of pharma/agri/corporate rule, the loss of soul and original thought, loss of connection to the earth. Opening all borders at this time would probably result in chaos since the collective consciousness still resides in a place of fear and separation for the most part. Are we really returning to a place of connection and peace? A place where our spirituality connects us with the Mother Earth, rather than separates us from Her and looks are Her only as something to use and conquer for our needs, rather that love, support, sustain and learn from?

One the second day of the gathering I felt my feet touching the earth, like hands on a drum, as the Lakota led a peace pipe ceremony. It was more than symbolic, more than a simple ceremony, it was the dawning of a new age~~ as hundreds gathered in widening circles around the elders, drums rumbled and singers sang songs in their native tongues........ at a certain point a large group of us began to dance in a large circle surrounding everyone, traveling around and around, on the periphery of the happening......the group from Peru was playing their music now and the sound of it reminded me of Celtic music.....and with my mainly Welsh, and also Irish, Russian, Spanish, etc. bloodline, this was sparking something as many of us began to spontaneously dance in small circles at that point, spinning each other around, catching the next person in the crook of our elbow, spinning on to the next. I could almost see the fairies dancing with us. From this a few people began to form a bridge with their arms and had us run underneath, and after coming out the other side, becoming the next link of the bridge. After going through several times, and after the music died down, I looked to my left to see that Grandmother/Elder Marguerite had joined us, smiling and laughing in the game.

The day before she had stood up to address the crowd, after many men had spoken about the feminine energy, how the feminine energy was becoming the predominant energy on the planet, how the poles were shifting (the irony that mainly men were speaking about the feminine was not lost on most of the people there!), she stood up and in a booming voice, followed closely by the english translator, proceeded to thank all of the men, all of the beautiful messages, but, in a nutshell, none of them would be there without a woman, thank you very much. This was met by loud applause~ her confidence and playful and outspoken ways were infectious, and it made me even more aware of how it really is time for the women to stand in their wisdom, in their power, in their authentic goddess self.

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Goddesses Rewrite!!

http://jaia.gaia.com — Fri, 20 Feb 2009 17:43:21 GMT

The other day marked the first official meeting of a small group of women I have known for years. Not all of us are in the Southern California area, and some of us even live on wheels :), so we meet by conference call. Our reason for meeting? Goddess Mastermind. To support each other in our visions and dreams, to gently call each other on our stuff, and to move forward in service to planetary healing and awakening. Whew, no small intention and no small potatoes in this group.

So, as we began yesterday we realized the material we were working with, which included steps, needed to be rewritten to account for the insights and teachings we had been expanding into over the years. For instance, the first step used words like powerless and problems, and ended with the sentence, I need help. Now, having an insight that you can use some help is one thing, but repeating these kinds of things every week is a goddess gal no-no. Unless you would like to continually repeat your experience of problems, powerlessness and needing help. We all agreed we didn't. After going through and releasing all sorts of negative focus and pity party language, another thing that sent the Kali Klan radar off was the word change. It seems good enough at first glance. We want change, you know. But it didn't resonate with any of us, and after a little conversation we realized why, and why the word transformation was much more appropriate for our purposes. Change is superficial. Transformation is deep. Change can be fleeting. If you change something, the next week you can change it again, or change it back. Once something transforms though, there is no going back. It is not a surface level change, it has become something entirely different at core. You change a habit, and you can have better habits, but it doesn't actually mean anything significant has changed. Behavior changing is good, one can replace one behavior for another, but it doesn't mean that person knows themselves any more than they did when they were engaged in the previous behavior. They could be just as unconscious as they always were, but behaving differently. It doesn't even mean they are in alignment with the deeper reason they are on the planet, just doing things differently. Nice, but on a deeper level, the Goddess says, so what?

So, just to be clear, I don't want to be changed. I don't want change. In fact, I don't want anything, in this moment, I am 'transformed by the renewing of my mind', I am whole, I am complete, I am free, living with an open heart, loving the adventure, in service to God's Divine Idea known as Jaia. And so it is!!

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The Lie of Perfection

http://jaia.gaia.com — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 17:24:00 GMT

After a intense inner meltdown yesterday I was inspired this morning upon waking by an insight as to the true nature of perfection. This is the type of insight that could help millions escape the competitive, judgmental, militant societal attitudes that create great psychological damage and are the very reason for the massive amount of addiction, violence, and chaos in the world. Sound like too much of a generalization? Too great a promise? I mean really, what kind of insight could have such an effect on humanities great problems and imbalances?

When I saw the Dalai Lama speak at UCLA some years back I remember him responding to someone's question, "What is this word, better?" Even though there was a translator present, he did not need a definition of the word, he understood it perfectly well- better than most of us one could say. He went on to say that this western idea was the cause of much suffering.

What is it in us that strives to be better? Strives to be greater? For perfection?

There are a few layers to this question. One part in us that strives for it is the part which can never attain it, making it a perfect vehicle for the ego. If the mind creates an idea that we can never live up to, and when we constantly fall short, we have plenty of ammunition to use against ourselves. These self created judgments can lead us to reach for the drink, the cigarette, the tv remote control, the phone......all so we don't have to feel those horrible feelings and to face the fact that we aren't perfect. Oh my god. I'm not perfect. How horrible. What a disgrace.

Another part inside of us that strives for perfection is the part that remembers the Truth about us. It is aware on some level of our inherent perfection, the spiritual dimension of our immortal being. "Have I not told you, ye are God?" rings in our ears as we are simultaneously told we are sinners incapable of such an honor.

With greater awareness we may come to know ourselves, well, better, and rather than seeking perfection in the physical, ego, material world, we seek to have an insight to our true nature. The part that doesn't need to attain perfection, because it already is. We give up trying to make our lives perfect, or the need to impress anyone, or even to improve ourselves, and just simply allow our true nature to emerge. This is a different way to do it. So, how to do this when we have commercials and billboards letting us know throughout the day that we are not enough as we are?

1. Be still and know that I Am in the midst of you. There is no substitute for quieting the mind and becoming aware of thoughts, feelings, sensations that are usually kept beneath surface daily activities and the constant activity of the mind.

2. Forgive 7x70. Or is is 70x7? Either way, it's a lot. I'm not a bible scholar, but some of the stuff in there comes from deep wisdom. Now if only we can practice it. Forgiveness is the stuff of miracles and liberation.

3. Let go. If you realize there is some idea that you are trying to live up to, some persona that you have created that you need to fit into in order to feel good about yourself, and if that is anything less than in the image and likeness of God, then let it go. Let go of trying and accept the truth that You already Are. "I am enough just as I am," is a good mantra. Sound a little hokey? Maybe. But, it's true. And, it's much different from, "I am not good enough yet", which is the prevailing unconscious mantra so many of us chant without realizing it, since it is the chant of western society.

It also occurred to me that this depressive, weighted, yesterday, which felt like it would last forever, after it had been gone through, in hindsight I found that it really wasn't that bad. Yes, it was dark and ugly inside, and it was painful, and for the most part, I'm not even sure what it was about--- but I realized that in the end it wasn't all that bad and before I would have done just about anything in the world to avoid going through this kind of stuff.

Formerly 250 pounds, processed food and sugar has been a great way to avoid feeling that I wasn't perfect. This was a particularly insidious one since at 250 pounds you cannot hide the fact that you are definitely not perfect (or, at least your body is not, but at that level of awareness, the body is identified as self, so in essence you are not perfect) and are reminded of this painful fact every time you pass a mirror. At least with smoking (which I did too), or drugs and alcohol (yep), addictive relationships (oh yeah), or other things like workaholism or trying to be loved by everyone (done that one as well), or antidepressants; at least with these you can at least appear perfect-- the ego idea of perfect at least. You can somewhat get away with the idea that you are perfect, based on a physical condition, before the ego crashes through again with it's judgment of how you are not quite there yet. Not quite good enough. You need to be....you know..... better.

So, I'll be allowing this insight to gestate within, already feeling liberated from the perfection trap on a new level, and continuing to hear the Dalai Lama's words, 'What is this word, better?"

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Food of the Goddess

http://jaia.gaia.com — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 23:24:46 GMT

Here is a link to an upcoming event on Sunday.

Looking forward to seeing all who can make it.

Also presenting at the Bodhi Tree Annex on January 30th.

Blessings!! xxoo Jaia

http://www.agapelive.com/index.php?anchor=calendar&sx=0&sy=0&cal_event_id=1062&cal_event_date=1231690510&cal_clipboard_event=

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Ayiya Pachamama

http://jaia.gaia.com — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 23:28:48 GMT

After three months at the Tree of Life, out in the middle of nowhere, (in a beautiful way), Patagonia, Arizona, orgainic spiritual gardening program/apprenticeship, and after coming to Palm Desert, Ca, mid December, spending time with my dad and Angel mom, then participating in the annual New Years Mediation retreat at Agape.....well, it has been of inner reflection, healing, grace, connection with Mother Nature, and inner quiet. My daughter is still with me, although she has mentioned more than a few times that she may be done with life on the road full time in the RV.

This year feels to be an ever deepening connection and awareness to this beautiful Mother Earth, Elementals, Devas, and the Divine Feminine energy in all forms. When I travelled with Agape to Peru in 2002 I brought back a crystal figure of Pachamama, the Earth Mother. I felt strongly pulled to bring her on a hike with a friend in the Palm Springs area, then also to the meditation retreat. One of our shaman guides from Peru had also emailed me the week before, after not hearing from him for quite a while. So, the energy was present,,,,,,Pachamama is calling. Then the night of the New Year, Michael and Rickie who facilitated the retreat handed it over to a shaman friend from Peru and we participated in a corn ceremony....shouting out Ayiya Pachamama (here I am, Earth Mother) . It feels like a year that Mother Earth needs us here more than ever.

This Sunday I will be giving a talk at Agape in Culver City, called Food of the Goddess; Eating for Spiritual Alignment and Planetary Healing. Bringing it all together as they say. The link is

http://www.agapelive.com/index.php?anchor=calendar&sx=0&sy=0&cal_event_id=1062&cal_event_date=1231715001&cal_clipboard_event= here's to a year of caring for ourselves and the Mother

Ayiya Pachamama!!

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Gabion Building 101

http://jaia.gaia.com — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 14:50:02 GMT

A picture of our crew with our newly built gabion. Yay!

Our garden manager took the week off last week leaving us in the hands of a local Patagonian and brilliant permaculturist. I learned so much, not just in the particulars, but in the far-reaching, time-appreciating patience that it takes to build something which supports our great mother earth, instead of depleting her. It feels to be a whole different thing when the intentin is to live in harmony with the earth, to take ecology into consideration, rather than just plant things where we want them when we want them how we want them.
Even though I have travelled extensively, I have lived in Southern California cities my entire 42 years, and I have been somewhat environmentally and permaculturally clueless. I replaced harsh chemicals years ago in favor of eco friendly ones, slowly evolved to eating vegan which is a huge lessening of resources and polution on the planet, became more aware of where my clothes were being made, etc., but being out here is a whole other level. When Kate spoke of her house building plans, how her mentor taught her by his way of surveying land for six months to a year before even thinking of breaking ground- to see how the water flows, tracking animal walking routes, wind patterns, etc. to see where buildings could most flow with the surrounding land and habitat and least interfere with it, well, it gave another meaning to patience, care and thoughtfulness. The saying that came up earlier, the Devils in the Details, came along with us here, showing that there are ways to create sustainable and eco friendly living spaces. Ones that value beauty as much as practicality as much as loving, respecting and caring for the earth. It was truly inspiring.

Our project with Kate was to build a gabion, a wire structure full of rocks, to help to prevent further water erosion on a river banks when the monsoons come next summer. My gym membership is on hold at the moment- it was surely not needed last week!!

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